November 2018

So what about running? How should I be thinking this time around? Knowing the end result of my first pregnancy and birth the sensible thing to do was probably to give running a rest and make sure to avoid further damage as much as possible? But all the work I had put in up until this point.. I felt as if it would all have been for nothing if I didn’t keep going. And maybe it would actually be good for my pelvic floor to keep ‘teaching’ it that kind of stress/impact…? But there was a chance this was only wishful thinking…

And of course the result of this second pregnancy was still a blank page. Regardless of if I ran or not now, there was a risk that after this birth my prolapse and pelvic floor were going to be in a state where running would be out of the picture completely. Forever. (Dark thoughts)

So the question was, keep going and enjoy running as long as it lasts? Just in case I won’t get the chance anymore later!? Or take a step back to limit any (potential) further damage?

The reality was that because my prolapse symptoms worsened so much in the first trimester, it came quite natural to take a step back with the running. Waking up in the morning with that heaviness down there made it impossible to enjoy it anyway. Both physically and mentally. I did a few 1-2 kilometer jogs over the first weeks – just for the sake of it I guess. For my cardiovascular fitness I would have to rely on spin classes again.

So when I put the running shoes on the shelf in pregnancy 2 I did it with a sincere hope that there will still be running in my future…

 

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We were lucky and I became pregnant relatively quickly and I was curious (maybe more nervous?) about how my body would react to this. I didn’t have to wait long and already in the very first weeks the prolapse gave me a clear reminder of its presence down there. The heavy bulging and chafing sensation which I lately would only feel at the end of a particularly tough day for the Pelvic Floor – I now felt first thing in the morning!

The pessimist inside me wondered how I would cope with this for 9 months whilst progressively getting bigger and heavier.

The optimist had learnt however that often prolapse symptoms could improve somewhat in the second trimester, and I tried to cling onto that idea as I counted the days and weeks….

The realist in me though knew that even if the symptoms would improve in the middle of the pregnancy, surely it would only be temporary. Having the weight from the baby pushing down on the pelvic floor at the end of a pregnancy, realistically it could only go one way for the prolapse issue. And on top of that the labour and birth itself!

A pregnancy filled with emotions, thoughts and concerns had begun.

 

 

 

 

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